pyschadelicsnake

So I was up on the hills where I live the other day just after it stopped a heavy burst of raining. As you hit the top of the highest hill, you're greeted by miles of seemingly untouched green land and it's awe inspiring in short and it's where I go for insight, inspiration and overall contentment. We all have our 'place' be it physically or mentally where we become 'wise and all knowing' about the idea of life as a whole and the hills are my place.

But that's not what this note's about, it's to share something I mentally debated and concluded there with you. We've all heard, thought or at some point in our lives asked the question "What's the meaning of life? Why are we here anyways? What is our purpose? What is MY purpose?" And the answer, for me, came with out even asking the question that day.Our intelligence as a species has both made us excel and at the same has restrained us in how we see or understand things. It's caused us to believe we're seperate to the 'animals' that roam the world, we're 'more'. It's also meant we challenge and question everything we come across in the world and a lot of that challenging and the ability to question has enabled us to believe we're meant to be here for something, our existance isn't random, it's to serve a purpose of some kind.

I don't believe life is that complex and cryptic at all, just our intelligence has made it seem so. I believe our meaning of life is to experience life. A bit vague and anti climatic I know but why shouldn't it be? In our desperate search to find purpose as a life form we've created all sorts of ideologies and religions to live by in belief that this is why we're here. I believe that we should really understand stress, joy, fear, relief and any other emotion or sense, soft, hard, warm, cold and be able to relate a personal experience with all emotions and senses etc. We're given this huge sandbox to experience, experiment with and learn called earth and our ability to play in that sandbox to experience what we desire is life itself. Learning that for myself really brought on a sense of gratitude and vitality.

That is not to say I believe any other out look on life is wrong, not at all. No matter your religion, goals or general way of life, if you're happy with it that's it! We all have our religions and gods, religion is just another word for beliefs anyway and mine is to experience, my God is mother nature. Of course being so young I may just be naive in thinking in the way I do but then again when do we actually stop being a naive know it all? When we're old and know it all?

I am amazing, I have and will continue to do great things, I am the right guy for the job, I am the right guy for her, I can do and be anything. Sounds arrogant doesn't it? But why should it? Why should someone limit how positively they see themselves? So that people don't think that you're a dick or so that you don't big yourself up to be something you're not? But what if you can be that something, what if you already are? People saying things like, "She/he/it is out of my league" implying you can't achieve a certain thing when someone else could, just makes my brain ache. Why can't you achieve something and even go further than what someone else has already achieved? It makes no sense to believe you're inferior to someone else in any way so long as you choose to attain their level of status in anything. Anyone can be with everyone, anyone can be anything, there are no limits as to how far you can go so long as you choose to actually go there. I think a little 'arrogance' from time to time can go along way. Don't be afraid to love yourself because we all deserve to big our selves up in something. Believing you're incapable will only make you incapable.That being said, it's also good to do some 'self wallowing' every now and then. Be aware of the positive and negative emotions and thoughts in anything. Experiencing the whole spectrum of simply living; happy, sad, serious, joking etc will only give you a much more open, stable, healthy and certain mind set. Just because you patted yourself on the back for something doesn't mean you're egotistic and taking time out to figure yourself out doesn't mean you're depressed. making sure you experience it all will help you live a positive balance and limitless opportunities.

Ever heard of the saying 'life is a game'? I think there's more wisdom and truth to that statement than what it implies. Like the beginning of most games, you start of with minimal information of your story, you have basic skills and experience and you're given a handful of 'extra lives'. Similar to RPG's your story is shaped through your decisions during the game, will you choose to be the warrior or mage? Hero or villian? How will gain your EXP and how you improve your character's skills?
As we journey through our RPG, we gain levels and with it, our character grows. Becoming stronger, more intelligent, more able. And bit by bit, we find out a little more about who we are, our story and our purpose.
Like any game, we also have to face our rivals, our 'bosses'. They don't need to take the form of a person per se, your boss can be anything, a phobia, obstacle, challenge. Sometimes we lose against our bosses and expend an extra life to have another shot at our story. What did we do wrong? Was our method not the right one? Do we need to change to deal with this boss or maybe we need to obtain more experience and skill before taking it on again. Some adapt to over come, while others stubbornly repeat their mistakes, expending all their extra lives and becoming frustrated and angry over their futile hardship, giving up on their story.
And sometimes we can lose an extra life through other ways than just a run in with our demons. A game takes unexpected twists turns both through story and gameplay. Sometimes we become careless and accidentally blindly run in to that trap or some one you had to rely on in key points through the story before isn't no longer with you.
But through careful use of our extra lives and the now highly leveled, experienced character, we've learnt a lot more about our story and become more immersed in it. How will you character with their enlightenment? Through a love interest? The defeat of your nemesis or maybe through your character's attained power and experience alone.We all play games to enjoy them so why not do the same with life? We play games to experience a story truly astounding, there's nothing saying you can't do the same about your own story. The story isn't over until those credits role and you decide when that happens, what's stopping you from making a sequel too?

Our ability to reminisce, ponder and imagine is such an amazing gift. I was walking through the local field today taking in how vibrant the day looked. The grass was tinted a pale yellow as if high lighted from the sun, the trees kept their green despite the up coming autumn season and the sky was such a deep blue with just the right amount of white clouds. The scene looked as though it was art on a canvas brought to life. The idea I was walking through a creative art piece made it almost effortless for me to enter and paint my own creative thoughts in my day dream state.
I'm a dreamer, so it only made sense my head was up, eyes fixated on the sky as I let my mind wander. As I did, my mind instantly took me to my most cherished past memories, the things I attach my identity to and the future I intend to make a reality. While I did all of this, all I could think of was her name and how easily she fit right in with my cherished memories, attachments and my future.

All the vibrant colours reminded me of her and just how right everything felt. She's a very colourful person, so much so that I'm pretty sure she'd make the rainbow look pretty bland! If there was a colour yet to be discovered, it'd have her name all over it. And I think that's what it takes for you to feel you've found someone right for you. And I'm not talking about, they listened to you that one time you felt down or was there for you once, it's more than that. I'm talking about how you can meet and get to know someone and even though they weren't a part of your past or certain cherished memories, they still feel right and like they belong there when you incorporate them in to that memory. There's no misunderstandings or clashing, they take something you view so highly and they turn it in to something even greater. I think that's when you know, you have someone you're going to do a lot of great things with, someone who'll make your future amazing. That's what I believe it takes to know you've got someone who's right for you.

Your happiness is a great and invaluable thing! We all want to be happy, but to what extent? Some people prefer limiting their happiness on account of playing life 'safe', others risk it all to experience that maximum thrill of happiness. Pondering that in my garden as the sun just set today, it got me thinking. Relationships work very similar to that style too. Here's an idea I have...

Single = 50% Happiness
In a relationship = 100% Happiness

And

Single = 50 Sadness
In a relationship = 100% Sadness

By deciding to live life single for a time, you're your own person, what you achieve is your own, you're 'safely' in the 50% zone at all times, never shifting, you're happy to some extent, yet something eventually feels missing. You're neither on top of the world, nor are you down in the dumps.

Deciding to share your life and become some what dependent on another person however, yields experiences and opportunities beyond any boundaries! It unlocks your potential to be happy completely and you can experience the greatest and most sought life experiences. Of course, that also works both ways... You can also experience the worst and least sought experiences that life has to offer and your sadness levels can reach an all time low. That all depends on how you and your other half work at your relationship and generally feel towards another of course!

Maybe that's why they're called your 'other half' because before you met them, you were only at 50% but with them, you're living 100%! But if you ever lose them, you're 0%...

So what are you willing to do to achieve your happiness? Do you play it safe and stick at the constant 50? or do you seek out that special someone to experience that myth-like 100% but in the process you way lose it all and fall to 0%? The way I see it, why not go for that CONSTANT 100% !